There is no reason to beat around the bush (well let’s keep the conversation upstairs). Last month I decided to finally go through with my pectoral augmentation –that’s what I am calling my procedure – and I just feel the need to get this off my chest.
My battle for the lost boobies started as soon as I started training for my first bikini competition 3 years ago. At first, my new itty bitties were validation of my hard earned fat loss. I loved them – In fact, I was proud to be a member of the small boob brigade. I would look down and the lack of reminded me that I was able to lose body fat and transform my body in a natural way.
Shortly after the weight loss I actually scheduled a consultation with a plastic surgeon to toy (or juggle – the puns aren’t done yet) with the idea of implants – but I put them in my bra and the feeling of being weighed down came flying back. I took them out and walked out of the office. At the time, they weren’t for me.
Now fast forward to present time – I sit here recovering from the smallest implant they make. Not because I needed them to compete or for photo shoots, (as you saw from the image – I was well versed in False Advertising products) but because with more years of strength training and building lean mass – I also built pecs.
My chest lost its feminine appearance. But I could still hang with all the ladies in the industry – fake it til you make it, right?
But when the straps came off; and the padding fell out, I was proud of the muscle I built, but in that personal setting (yes, I am a married woman) I was a bit taken aback by my unfeminine appearance.
At this point the lack of fat tissue made me more insecure in non-fitness related activities. I had to put the fear of judgment and the notions of no longer being an “all natural” athlete aside. I did my research and found a surgeon who I trusted to equip me with the little bit I wanted. — Do your research ladies – some surgeons are pretty persuasive about the size they think you should be – and last month I signed on the dotted line, fell asleep, and woke up to my new bitties. I won’t go in depth about the size, type, and procedure that was a right fit for me, (will gladly answer questions if you email me at firstname.lastname@example.org) but I assure you it was a perfect pair. My decision was not a quick process and I still feel I may be judged by other “natural” athletes for my decision – but fitness isn’t everything and another priority outweighed that aspect of my life.
So why am I writing this blog?? Let me reference a blog (Barbells and Breasts by Rita Catalino) I read during my second day post-op. This really helped me put into words what I am going through mentally.
I too, coach women to compete and lead them into fitness modeling in the most natural way possible. I do not want to hide the fact that I have had pectoral augmentation (remember this is my new term) but I did not have this surgery to FIT in with this industry. You do not need boobs to compete, to win, or to get published. I TRAINED for all those things and EARNED them without the knockers. But to the detriment of fat loss it was a personal decision I wanted to make and I wanted to share with women why I made the decision. Now I look down at my pecs and see something that still reminds me of my fitness journey these were just the fruits of my success…how about that spin??
Fitness model Pauline Nordin stated in an article:
As an athlete and a fitness model you strive to create a flawless physique…with weights and diet to sculpt shapes and curves. But in order to see the beautiful shape the body needs to be lean with very little body fat. Here you face a Catch-22…because the tighter the body the droopier the chest (made up of mostly fat). I chose to go down that path [of breast augmentation] since I strive to create and display that fit, strong body with curves, shape, muscle and femininity all combined into one human sculpture. Plastic surgery is the only option that enables this otherwise human physiology-wise unattainable body.”
Remember ladies I decided 3 years ago to share with you this lifestyle and industry. I plan to be an open book because the topics I write about are often one’s I had a difficult time finding information on. This topic being one of them - and I am not stopping here! Have a question? or want a topic discussed send me an email at email@example.com and let’s keep the communication lines open!
and remember Earn your slice of the fit life!
unedit image credit Noel Daganta Photography